Momentary Light Afflictions
©2007 *Acwraith
I apologize in advance if this blog has no particular focus…just getting some thoughts out on “paper”
At this moment I’m relaxing at Starbucks on Regent, my favourite place to curl up with a Venti Gingerbread Latte (they’re back!) on a chilly fall evening.
Just thinking about life and where it’s heading for me right now. Last weekend was incredible and it really did stir something new and at the same time stir something that’s always been within me. The onething team was great and I strongly believe God strategically brought them to Winnipeg at this space in time for a specific reason. (that’s another blog in itself at another time!)
Justin Rizzo spoke at a break-out session on Saturday evening coming out of 2 Corinthians 4:7-18, a great passage dealing with finding the joy in pain and suffering. He brought it from an angle of letting God in to heal past and present hurts now, instead of letting them heal incorrectly on their own, only to have them broken again to heal correctly.
For myself, I know that’s a place where I’ve had a lot of difficulty letting God in. I know His leadership over my life is perfect, but sometimes I like to have my own say in the matter (if you know me, you know that I’m pretty vocal and highly opinionated sometimes). Sometimes I feel like I need to fix the problem on my own not realizing that though it was healed, it healed incorrectly.
He gave the example of a broken bone that healed crooked. To the extent of my knowledge, when a bone is healed crooked, complications aren’t visible right away. However, sooner or later, the crooked healing will have to be dealt with. Depending on how long it’s been misaligned, the bone itself would have to be broken again in order to guide it into correct alignment and to avoid further complications.
God, as our Father and healer wants to come and heal the bone the first time, but in our stubborn, humanistic mindset, we refuse His entrance and attempt to fix things ourselves, which usually ends up in a misaligned healing. It’s sad really. After the wound heals misaligned, He’ll eventually have to come, break it again and correct the alignment.
This is where I protest (not sure about anyone else but I’ll be honest) and wonder why on earth He’s breaking it again, not realizing that it was me who first denied His healing 10 odd years earlier. As Justin said, if you see a person in their 40’s or 50’s who’s bitter and angry, it most likely wasn’t something that happened recently. It’s because of years of wrong choices and wounds that have healed incorrectly.
So this past week, and even just thinking about it tonight, there’s a few wounds that have been healed but need to be broken again and aligned correctly in my life. I know that once these are aligned now, that it will be a lot easier to endure pain and suffering but also find the joy in it. After all, “our light affliction, which is for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory… (2 Corinthians 4:17)”.
~I’m Yours to take and break but make me sensitive to You. I’ve come too far to turn around now. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do, to hear Your words of life God, to be as close to You as any man has ever dared to come.
-Luke Wood~
You are becoming a wise woman!
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Kristi |
November 4, 2007 at 9:34 a.m.